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Faded
I’m back on the floor again,
Didn’t know how it came to this.
Didn’t know how it became that way,
But I guess that just the way it is.
Had to get rid of all the sorrow in my veins,
Didn’t know how to get rid of the pain.
How much longer can I hold on to this?
My mind is tired and it wants to quit.
Little by little the happiness fades,
Replaced by something more darker.
Everything is painted in a shade of gray,
Depression is taking over.
A plastic smile on my face,
Pretending that I’m okay.
While deep inside I hide the pain,
The truth can’t be regained.
Unseen by this world,
I now want to be heard.
Please rid of this sorrow.
I fade away,
Cold and astray.
Find me,
Before the pain takes it all away.
Heal me,
Before these wound I cease to bear.
Save me,
I need your care.
Gone for good,
Is this how it should be?
How I die?
By just fading away.
-Kitty and Boo-Boo-
Loser
I’m lost myself,
To the words of hate.
My hearts breaking,
I’m being put down,
And made to feel like a,
Loser
I’m trying to be strong,
To believe in myself,
And not to fall.
I can’t lose to words,
I can’t waste another,
Drop of tear.
Of all I’ve tried to be all these years.
Of all the good I’ve tried to do,
Now I ask myself, who?
Who am I?
What am I worth?
I have lost myself to words
Loser is what I call myself.
I let their words break me again.
I’m trying to be good and better
Believe in me
And you’ll see what all I can be
Trust in me,
And I’ll give you the world,
You have dreamt.
Lost in the words of hate,
I’m walking in the dark alone.
But there, that light, it shines deep within me.
Saying, “you are better that them”
So I’m moving on,
I’ll never let them make me feel,
Like a Loser.
-Stefanie-
Losing reasons to cry
Drops fall like poison in my blood,
Tears of blood wasted,
For all the wrong reasons.
Crying, I’ve cried for too long,
Drowned in my tears.
I’m losing reasons,
Reasons to cry.
My eyes have dried,
There is nothing left.
Nothing more to cry for,
I’ve nothing more.
Al I wanted was a warm smile,
All I got was hurtful lies.
Show this soul some mercy,
Give me a reason to love,
A feeling of hope,
A reason to live.
Walking Dead, I’m rotting inside.
I’ve lost all reasons to cry,
Reason to live,
To be,
Me.
Lost,
Dead,
Hurt,
I’m losing my ability to be,
Free from what I’m becoming.
Painless,
Fearless,
Losing all,
Losing me.
How will I stop this hurt turned evil that’s growing in me.
Free, I can’t be freed.
-Stefanie-
Believe in Me
I’ll live a thousand lives,
Just trying to be with you,
I’ll make you mine,
For sure our love will bind.
Believe in me,
Be with me,
Trust in me,
Hold me,
Please don’t forsake me
I’ve tried to change,
I tried over and over,
To be your only one.
But all my tries went down all along.
I’ll give you the world,
It’s what you deserve.
I’ve tried to hold on,
For the wounds to heal.
Believe… conceal,
My heart,
My soul is bleeding for you,
My love.
I’ve cried for so long,
I’m going to hold on,
For one day my love you’ll see me,
But then I will be long gone,
This is so long.
I was broken,
Now healing and leaving you behind.
I’ll find,
Someone to love,
Someone who will,
Believe in me.
-Stefanie-
Hollow
In my empty shell I lay,
Waiting for the break of day,
Darkness crawls,
And I feel,
Hollow.
In this nightmare,
I’m falling,
Drowning in myself.
This lifeless soul I drag on,
In search for the light,
I can’t see.
Chilled to the bone,
I have nothing left to be.
Hollow I’m going,
Sinking in my fear,
To see no tomorrow.
I feel this sorrow,
It’s taking me over,
It’s taking forever to find myself.
Surrounded by what I fear.
The battle is here,
Me and my fear
Blood drenched tears,
Pour as I scream,
This seem to go no where,
I have to win,
I can’t let it cease me.
With this last strike,
I slash you down.
Now you drown in my gain,
Never to be reclaimed.
-Stefanie-
On Your Own
Sinking deeper into your own guilt
Trying to wipe the grime of your filth
Your life is now buried in ****
With everything I ignore you
Not listening to you one bit
The hate in your veins
The power in your brain
Only greed and shame
Gives you away
You hide now, behind your pride
Covering up with all your lies
Your words are like scars
Etched into my mind so hard
Death means nothing to you
I’m better off without you
As your existence brings me down
Now trying to get back
What you always wanted
But fear still grips you
You’re haunted
Everyone’s ditching you
Hating you more
You got back what you’ve done
Never getting back what you’ve won
You’ll pay for the sin
You melt under the sun
No one to heal you
Not one
**** happens
In result of what you’ve done
It’s what you get of what you had become
Start over, it’s better
Changing is no big deal
This is the difference of what is real.
-Kitty-
Guilty Fear
If I close my eyes
To the world
Can I still pretend?
That I can see
If I stop to breath
Does it make them think?
It wasn’t me
Broken, fallen in pieces
I pray for the end
Pretending to be gone
Seems to not be fun
They see me now
I run till I find a way out
I can face the light if I have to
I can cross a thousand seas if I can
I’ll search far and wide
For the truth of me
I’ll dig deep to bury my lies
Running away is no option
Hiding is no secret
Drowning all this sorrow won’t help
There’s still one more path left
Ridding this fear and guilt
I’ll find my truth
Away from my lies
I kept denying
My guilty conscious
My fearful heart
This all I depart
I found the path of truth
Out now with the bad
And in with the good
-Kitty-
The Cold
The cold, it’s all around.
I fear that this might be the last of my life.
Every breath I hold deep within;
Until there is nothing left no more.
Fear its all around me keeping me away from the world.
My soul cries for life.
What’s left now deep inside fades away.
My tries have been all in vain.
I’m trapped in this dome of my pain,
No light to save me from this sorrowful life;
I’ll wait till it saves me.
Till then I hope it doesn’t drive me insane.
I’ll remain here in my dome till life I gain.
-Stefanie-
a new one.....
The Great One
i seen the world
and what its become
i fear the worst has come
can't no one see
that its falling apart
the wrong we did, how it broken our worlds heart
lets join together and mend it again
let become one
put your fear aside and lift your hands to the sky
call out and apoligize to the lord for our wrong
for our sins have put us down lets praise the great one for what he's done.
Faded
I’m back on the floor again,
Didn’t know how it came to this.
Didn’t know how it became that way,
But I guess that just the way it is.
Had to get rid of all the sorrow in my veins,
Didn’t know how to get rid of the pain.
How much longer can I hold on to this?
My mind is tired and it wants to quit.
Little by little the happiness fades,
Replaced by something more darker.
Everything is painted in a shade of gray,
Depression is taking over.
A plastic smile on my face,
Pretending that I’m okay.
While deep inside I hide the pain,
The truth can’t be regained.
Unseen by this world,
I now want to be heard.
Please rid of this sorrow.
I fade away,
Cold and astray.
Find me,
Before the pain takes it all away.
Heal me,
Before these wound I cease to bear.
Save me,
I need your care.
Gone for good,
Is this how it should be?
How I die?
By just fading away.
-Kitty and Boo-Boo-
Loser
I’m lost myself,
To the words of hate.
My hearts breaking,
I’m being put down,
And made to feel like a,
Loser
I’m trying to be strong,
To believe in myself,
And not to fall.
I can’t lose to words,
I can’t waste another,
Drop of tear.
Of all I’ve tried to be all these years.
Of all the good I’ve tried to do,
Now I ask myself, who?
Who am I?
What am I worth?
I have lost myself to words
Loser is what I call myself.
I let their words break me again.
I’m trying to be good and better
Believe in me
And you’ll see what all I can be
Trust in me,
And I’ll give you the world,
You have dreamt.
Lost in the words of hate,
I’m walking in the dark alone.
But there, that light, it shines deep within me.
Saying, “you are better that them”
So I’m moving on,
I’ll never let them make me feel,
Like a Loser.
-Stefanie-
Losing reasons to cry
Drops fall like poison in my blood,
Tears of blood wasted,
For all the wrong reasons.
Crying, I’ve cried for too long,
Drowned in my tears.
I’m losing reasons,
Reasons to cry.
My eyes have dried,
There is nothing left.
Nothing more to cry for,
I’ve nothing more.
Al I wanted was a warm smile,
All I got was hurtful lies.
Show this soul some mercy,
Give me a reason to love,
A feeling of hope,
A reason to live.
Walking Dead, I’m rotting inside.
I’ve lost all reasons to cry,
Reason to live,
To be,
Me.
Lost,
Dead,
Hurt,
I’m losing my ability to be,
Free from what I’m becoming.
Painless,
Fearless,
Losing all,
Losing me.
How will I stop this hurt turned evil that’s growing in me.
Free, I can’t be freed.
-Stefanie-
Believe in Me
I’ll live a thousand lives,
Just trying to be with you,
I’ll make you mine,
For sure our love will bind.
Believe in me,
Be with me,
Trust in me,
Hold me,
Please don’t forsake me
I’ve tried to change,
I tried over and over,
To be your only one.
But all my tries went down all along.
I’ll give you the world,
It’s what you deserve.
I’ve tried to hold on,
For the wounds to heal.
Believe… conceal,
My heart,
My soul is bleeding for you,
My love.
I’ve cried for so long,
I’m going to hold on,
For one day my love you’ll see me,
But then I will be long gone,
This is so long.
I was broken,
Now healing and leaving you behind.
I’ll find,
Someone to love,
Someone who will,
Believe in me.
-Stefanie-
Hollow
In my empty shell I lay,
Waiting for the break of day,
Darkness crawls,
And I feel,
Hollow.
In this nightmare,
I’m falling,
Drowning in myself.
This lifeless soul I drag on,
In search for the light,
I can’t see.
Chilled to the bone,
I have nothing left to be.
Hollow I’m going,
Sinking in my fear,
To see no tomorrow.
I feel this sorrow,
It’s taking me over,
It’s taking forever to find myself.
Surrounded by what I fear.
The battle is here,
Me and my fear
Blood drenched tears,
Pour as I scream,
This seem to go no where,
I have to win,
I can’t let it cease me.
With this last strike,
I slash you down.
Now you drown in my gain,
Never to be reclaimed.
-Stefanie-
On Your Own
Sinking deeper into your own guilt
Trying to wipe the grime of your filth
Your life is now buried in ****
With everything I ignore you
Not listening to you one bit
The hate in your veins
The power in your brain
Only greed and shame
Gives you away
You hide now, behind your pride
Covering up with all your lies
Your words are like scars
Etched into my mind so hard
Death means nothing to you
I’m better off without you
As your existence brings me down
Now trying to get back
What you always wanted
But fear still grips you
You’re haunted
Everyone’s ditching you
Hating you more
You got back what you’ve done
Never getting back what you’ve won
You’ll pay for the sin
You melt under the sun
No one to heal you
Not one
**** happens
In result of what you’ve done
It’s what you get of what you had become
Start over, it’s better
Changing is no big deal
This is the difference of what is real.
-Kitty-
Guilty Fear
If I close my eyes
To the world
Can I still pretend?
That I can see
If I stop to breath
Does it make them think?
It wasn’t me
Broken, fallen in pieces
I pray for the end
Pretending to be gone
Seems to not be fun
They see me now
I run till I find a way out
I can face the light if I have to
I can cross a thousand seas if I can
I’ll search far and wide
For the truth of me
I’ll dig deep to bury my lies
Running away is no option
Hiding is no secret
Drowning all this sorrow won’t help
There’s still one more path left
Ridding this fear and guilt
I’ll find my truth
Away from my lies
I kept denying
My guilty conscious
My fearful heart
This all I depart
I found the path of truth
Out now with the bad
And in with the good
-Kitty-
The Cold
The cold, it’s all around.
I fear that this might be the last of my life.
Every breath I hold deep within;
Until there is nothing left no more.
Fear its all around me keeping me away from the world.
My soul cries for life.
What’s left now deep inside fades away.
My tries have been all in vain.
I’m trapped in this dome of my pain,
No light to save me from this sorrowful life;
I’ll wait till it saves me.
Till then I hope it doesn’t drive me insane.
I’ll remain here in my dome till life I gain.
-Stefanie-
a new one.....
The Great One
i seen the world
and what its become
i fear the worst has come
can't no one see
that its falling apart
the wrong we did, how it broken our worlds heart
lets join together and mend it again
let become one
put your fear aside and lift your hands to the sky
call out and apoligize to the lord for our wrong
for our sins have put us down lets praise the great one for what he's done.
I really like them. Well done.